Stories of Love and Peace

Osage Forest of Peace

Forgiveness

I have felt the peace,

and I have basked in the love

of forgiveness,

once or twice.

I have avoided,

and I have clung to,

not forgiving,

many times.

I imagine

I even lie to myself.

Pretending I have forgiveness in my heart.

Today I look at what I have not forgiven.

I investigate the clouded memories and thoughts.

I try to see clearly.

I want real love, and I want to forgive.

I Am Real Now

 

My childhood taught me to hide

not only myself but my feelings.

The only acceptable response,

“everything is just fine.”

To feel “just fine,” I hid behind

books and imagination.

To show, “just fine,”

I became an expert at pretending.

All real emotions became

confusing and scary.

I hate the term, “you wear your

feelings on your sleeves”.

After hearing it so many times,

I decided never to listen to it again.

The actual feelings became locked away

and festered and exploded from time to time

making everything in its path raw.

Until now,

because of the light and love I know,  my life

is beginning to heal.

I am allowing the real to fill my heart and spirit.

And my response is the truth.

“I’m just fine.”

I have peace in my heart.