I Am Challenged

Am I Willing?

I have had many conversations with different people about challenges and sometimes even total rattling of our existence and how it awakens and opens doors and windows.  In my life, I can track my writing existence with upheavals in my life.  I would have sparse or non-existent writing and then something would knock me to the ground and I would rise again with a willingness to challenge myself and allow my spirit to guide me in my writing. 

Recently, there are challenges being presented and that tight feeling in my chest was telling me I needed a cleaning and a good ole talk with myself about the fears I hide away in my little closet in my mind.  You know the one the ego loves to open and pull out stuff to catch us up when we are living with faith or about to change our lives. 

You know the closet with the “I’m too old to help”, “I can’t find the time”, “I don’t know how to do that”, “I’m no good at that”, “Oh, that takes money”, “I live too far away”, and so on.  It’s time to slam that door shut and move forward in faith, move forward with all that God provides.  Leaving behind those comforting fears we settle into because we don’t like change.  But, life is change, to truly live we must change, we must learn, we must step into that precipice with our hearts pounding.   We must move forward with the  same faith of Israel’s people following Moses and standing at the Red Sea. (The last sentence is thanks to Rev Mary Anne Harris)  We are not alone.

The Challenge

I stand at a precipice,

Awaiting a sign.

My pounding heart catches my breath

As I am challenged.

Am I willing to set aside the comforting fears?

Am I willing to step into faith?

Am I willing to allow my spirit to guide me?

I listen and hear,

I am beside you.

PAWade 

2017