Different Times
Oh, my, the catharsis has begun:
Feelings?
Isolated from
feelings
As a prisoner from
the world.
Allowing no one near
enough to see….
the fear…
the pain…
the anger…
Dreaming of a love
who can free me.
Lying safely in my
dreams
Because loving would
mean escape.
Escape would mean
feeling without
Isolation to protect.
No shield to cover
the unhealed wounds
Of so long ago…
So little time
between the pain…
Never enough to heal.
Never enough to
forget.
Knowing the
pretending must end.
And the feeling must
begin.
Allowing the dream to
come true.
P.A.W.
1986
Before and After
The numbness has faded
Now every nerve screams in pain and disbelief
Where was I all these months?
I was frozen, I was suspended
Shock took over my mind and body.
I am consumed with images and emptiness
Before and after-that is my life.
“They” say the first year has all the hard
anniversaries.
What first year? The one spent going through the
motions and no awareness?
Or the first year your mind actually awakens to the
reality?
The reality that he is truly gone?
P A Wade 2014
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